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RELEASING THE OLD – Part 10 – Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself


This audio tape is the studied chapter from the book Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself,  by Joe Dispenza, which you can purchase on Amazon.  We are also excerpting the music of The Walls Group, “Make Me Over,” which can be purchased on i-Tunes.  

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We cannot find a better, more joyful retreat — than in our own souls.

Our souls know that God is not only Mother and Father but God is the One from whom there is no separation.

God is the breath that unites our souls with our body temples.
Breathe in and breathe out– remind yourselves that you are one with all souls, one with all breaths, all energy, all joy, all of God’s breath — breathing back as us.

When we remember to be conscious of the joy of God’s divine breath, every cell, every atom, every molecule of our body says Yes! — and our entire being becomes a prayer.

Focus your attention at the center of your forehead — above the space between your eyes — what we the third eye — the place where we align with the energy of the Soul.

The soul is everywhere and nowhere.
When we are centered in the Soul, we see with its eyes.
We see past the limitations of space and form and shape and even species,  and Joy appears as the wide open dimension of pure possibility. 


The silence is God’s voice. 

Joy is our redemption.
It is said that all beings are interconnected, and that we only need to tune into the silence within ourselves to truly understand this.

Jesus said love one another as I have loved you.  In John 15:11, Jesus says I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.
We need to recognize that we all have a divine purpose — and ours may seem minimal or even trivial — or perhaps completely non-existent, but we are all here to bring joy.

If you pay attention, the soul will teach you how to stop fighting and be a recipient of God’s good.

Look in your hands.

The universe of endless source is always putting crumbs there, always putting morsels of substance, spiritual manna to feed you.

But most importantly — Spirit always give you the opportunity to feed others.  Jesus told Peter three times, “feed my sheep.”

Don’t worry so much about getting something for yourself — but to bring joy to others.

Maybe it’s forgiving someone who is really difficult to forgive.

Maybe it’s being silent and listening to someone who really needs someone to listen.

Maybe it’s holding back a harsh word and instead speaking a word of encouragement.

Maybe it’s opening a door — and allowing someone else to go first.

Maybe it’s giving a really big tip — despite your budget.

Maybe it’s simply writing a letter each day to let someone know how they’ve made a difference in your life.
Whatever it is, keep giving it each day — and the unnoticeable beings of life will show up in unexpected places to reward you with unimaginable  manna of life-altering goodness. 


collateralLast night, I was watching Will Smith’s movie Collateral Beauty, about a man who loses his only child, a daughter who was only six years old, and the pain that he grows through in order to return to himself.  The movie raises the question what is “collateral beauty”?  We always talk about collateral damage, the negative secondary or by-product of an accident, catastrophe or tragedy that brings additional pain, hurt, injury, and suffering.  But we never talk about collateral “beauty,” which is, to me, the ability to see the glass half-full instead of half-empty, the ability to see the presence of God, even in the midst of messiness, turmoil and strife.
collateral2 The movie Collateral Beauty focuses on three attributes, which in many respects reflect mind, body and soul: death, time and love.

Paul would say that we die daily, that in each breath we are given the opportunity to be renewed, to leave the old and begin again.  No matter what we experience, we have the ability to re-invent ourselves.  Even if we have made some transgressions, we can forgive ourselves and start all over again.  Spirit is unconditional love.  That Divine Mind of Absolute Good that we call God is the pure energy of forgiveness, of unconditional grace.  Every breath that we breathe allows us to embrace a new existence.
collateral4The collateral beauty of our challenges is that they allow us to re-start, to re-invent, to re-create, to re-establish who we are – to get rid of the old so that the new can emerge.  In John 8:51, Jesus says “Very truly I tell you, whoever obeys my word will never see death.”   Nothing and no one can destroy the pure presence of Spirit expressing as us.  So we get up from our mats and walk.  We rise like a phoenix from the ashes.  In three days, we find our temples restored.

nature-animation-gif-6It doesn’t matter what or who we are confronted with in the world, nothing or no one is too great for God.  Even what others mean for evil, God means for good.  As the scripture teaches us, the battle is not ours, it is God’s.  No weapon formed against us shall prosper.

Similarly, time is a construct created to attempt to contain our spiritual experiences or physical realities, but they are really without limitation.  Our bodies are more Spirit than flesh.  The collateral by-product of our challenges is that we realize time is only the appearance of limitation.  Proverbs 17:17 says “a friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for a time of adversity.”  Our true friend is the timelessness and limitlessness of God.  In God’s time, we are ageless.  In God’s time, we are at the beginning and end of creation.  In God’s time, we are eternally beautiful, and the right time is wherever we are.

rain-in-forest-wallpaperThe collateral beauty of disaster or difficulty is that we can experience the fullness of the perfect divine order of life, realizing that despite appearances, we are in our right space at our right time.

I see God in my life, despite the appearances of difficulties.  I rise above the fray to position myself in the divine flow of Spirit expressing through me.  The collateral beauty is the strength that Spirit expresses in this lift above pain, above disappointment, above betrayal, above fear into the realm of absolute good.

springtimeCollateral beauty is more difficult to see because we are distracted from seeing the good everywhere present, the birth of Spirit all around us, the widow’s oil that keeps pouring, the baskets of fish and bread left over.  The Psalmist says (27:4) One thing I ask from the Lord, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.”

Collateral beauty is our first step to finding the temple within.  The temple is love.

The letters of John leave a prophetic message: love is God.

rainbow3So even when we are blinded by the events and transgressions of the world, through their impact, we are given a new vision: one that allows us to see God in every word, every breath, every event, and every circumstance.

I can complain forever.  I can fear without ceasing.  I can stop creating.  I can worry about what others say.  I can cross over into a boundary of unhappiness so restrictive that I can stop living, like Will Smith’s character did.  He retreated into a world of pain and misery.

sunsetOr I can step out into the sunlight of a new day, a day that I have never seen before.  I can release the baggage of yesterday.  I can climb a new mountain and cross the waters of new faith, realizing that this, too, shall pass, but more importantly, that this – whatever this is, is the blessing of collateral beauty: a small crack in the universe, where I can see God.




spring 15Last Sunday at SPIRITMUV, we had a great time shaking the dust off our feet.
We shook off fear.
We shook off resentment.
We shook off distractions.
We shook off worries.
We followed the teachings of Jesus Christ and shook off anyone and anything not in alignment with our greatest good.

Bible 6In Mark 6:8-13, the scripture teaches us that Jesus instructed his twelve disciples as they went around teaching from village to village that if “any place will not welcome [them] or listen to [them], leave that place and shake the dust off [their] feet as a testimony against them.”

shaking off the dustShaking off the dust gives us the freedom to rid ourselves  of relationships that are toxic; mistakes that we believe we made; illnesses that seem to persist; habits that are bad for us; lousy memories of the past; jobs that don’t allow us to grow; bitterness, arrogance, resentment, frustration, misery, pain – anything that blocks us from experiencing the best.

Jesus tells us to release these things because if we don’t they will suck the life out of us.  Even our adversaries should be agreed with quickly because otherwise, we give them dominion and power over us.  If we are giving our energy to our so-called issues – as opposed focusing on our divine ideas, we are not open and receptive to the Good that God iswalking three trying to bless us with.

snow11We pile up so much in our lives as we move through the day-to-day moments of expression.  We take so much for granted.  We don’t even see the full expansion of life that we have been blessed with because we are so busy going through the motions of existence — that it is not until we slow down to clean the debris that has collected that we remember we are here.

We are here — we are actually part of an incredible magnificent creative process that is remarkably filled with divine ideas and endless energy and abundant beauty and magical grace.  We are here — notbeauty eleven just to collect issues and problems and challenges but to be part of the powerful unfolding of something greater.

time 3That’s what the New Year acknowledges.  It reminds us to clean up, to take stock, to make lists, to chart goals, to re-commit, to promise ourselves to remember that we are here — not to just go through the motions but to get up off our individual and collective butts and do something with our lives — to be that better person, to raise our grades, to finish what we started, to begin something new, to chart our course, to reach for the stars, to have the courage to do what we have always wanted to do.

We teach Genesis as the beginning of all beginnings — falling to realize that God didn’t just create a world in seven days and stop.  God is constantly creating through us.  The New Year reminds us of this awesome responsibility — that God unfolds as we create through the infinite power of all that God is.  The New Year gives us new canvas, new colors, new brushes, new sounds, new music, new movements, new drums, new keys, new beats.


The truth is  — as Jesus says, it is written in our laws — that we are gods — more Spirit than flesh, endowed with the unlimited capacity to create — blessed with the creative vision to imagine our good and watch it take shape — given the ability to speak into existence whatever we want to see take shape in our lives.

We are the God that we pray to — Think about that.  Think about what you would do for you if you really believed that you were praying to yourself.

move 17What if you really believed that you were here to give unlimited expression to our Oneness with the divine power of creation?  You would shake the dust off your feet and move forward with your life – strong, radiant and rich with the unlimited good that God has blessed you with.

untitledJesus is teaching us to do just that – to realize that the God in us frees us from everything in our humanness that is blocking the flow of Spirit, or our good, of our divine energy; to stop second-guessing our divine potential; to realize that whatever needs to take shape is already manifesting; to trust that the Universe will give us the guidance that we need whenever we ask for it; to know that God is always sending us the ideas and the people and the situations that we need to do what we are called to do — and that we should never limit ourselves to a particular channel.

uggs walkingWe can shake the dust off our feet and know with absolute faith that whatever we need will find itself along the way of our path.




We are in the season of shaking off the old, shedding the past, and releasing our baggage.  We are in the season of the power that we call renunciation.  The poet Rainer Maria Rilke said, “Lord, it is time.  The summer was very big.  [But] lay thy shadow on the sundials, and on the meadows let the winds go loose.  Command the last fruits that they shall be full; give them another two more southerly days, press them on to fulfillment and drive the last sweetiness into the heavenly wine.”

When we let go, we discover that we don’t lose anything at all.  When we let the chips fall as they may, we realize that the truth will be revealed.  We learn that our good comes from amazing new channels, from far corners and places that we could not have even anticipated.  And when the dust finally settles, we see that the resurrection that we needed was just waiting.  Poet John Muir says “The winds will blow their own freshness into you, and the storms their energy, while cares will drop away from you like the leaves of Autumn.”

Valentin wrote that “Summer is already better, but the best is autumn.   It is mature, reasonable and serious, it glows moderately and not frivolously … It cools down, clears up, makes you reasonable …”  A season of reasonableness gives us the clarity to see past the things that we have been struggling with, to press beyond whatever held us back, to let go so that we can gather our harvest, and turn over new leaves that will heal our souls.  A season of reasonableness if not simply for moving forward, but for slowing down, and listening.

The story of Noah is about listening.  If he was not listening, he would have been wiped out with every other living thing on the face of the earth.  Noah means release — rest in spiritual consciousness — letting go — so that God can bless us.  Genesis 7 teaches us that when the season of cleansing was upon Noah, he let go of whatever was not essential and loaded everything else on an ark.

The ideas that were important to keep — every aspect of them — the male and the female — they took with them — the whole idea with its ability to co-create.  The Bible says “Pairs of clean and unclean animals, of birds and of all creatures that move along the ground, male and female, came to Noah and entered the ark, as God had commanded Noah.”  And after they gathered the essential ideas around them — the pure ideas of being — and went within — they centered in the Spirit as the cleansing took place.  Physically, we see destruction; metaphysically, we see the cleansing energy of God.  When we are cleansed in the outer, we have to be girded in strength on the inner.

We grow through our autumns, our shedding of the past — our cleansing of the unnecessary — the things and the people and the situations that were not in accordance with our individual soul’s purpose.  The Bible says that rain fell upon the earth 40 days and 40 nights.  Metaphysically, 40 means as long as it takes.  Healing and releasing is a process.  Sometimes, we have to go through a process of release for years.  But regardless of how long it takes us to learn what we need to know, when we are ready, we are ready.  You see, it’s not the end result that matters as much as what we learn in the process.  A lot of times we think that we are learning one thing and when we look back, we were really learning another.  The Universe will give us the trials and the tribulations that are essential for our growth.

It’s kinda like the bed bug epidemic.  Undoubtedly, those pests are going to force millions of us to clean up our lives and get rid of the things that no longer served us.  Apparently, the imports from factories abroad have helped cause the infestation.  Hmmmmm.  What if Americans actually used Americans as labor?  That would drastically reduce our importation of bed bugs, as well as help the country’s unemployment statistics.  Hmmmmm.  If I get bedbugs as a bonus from the malls, it also makes me even more reluctant to buy what I don’t need.  Hmmmmm.  Maybe I need to clean up underneath the bed and in every crack and crevice anyway.

This is the season to surround ourselves with only what is essential.  The stuff that is not worthy of us needs to be cleansed by the flood.  This may not even be other people, it may be our thoughts.  Our own thoughts are harder to release than what we see in the flesh.  We don’t want to admit that there is some stuff in us that shouldn’t be allowed on the ark.  There’s some stuff in us that we need to give up.  Renunciation is our starting place.

In John 8:21, Jesus told the Pharisees “Where I go, you cannot come.”  There is a time in our lives when we have to tell those things and those thoughts and those people who no longer serve God’s good for us — NO, I don’t want you to come with me.  I’m really good doing this alone.  I’m going to a higher place.  Jesus told them: “You are from beneath; I am from above. You are of this world; I am not of this world.”

I am going to a higher place.

What you intended for evil — God meant for good.

There’s something better ahead.  I thought we were going to do this together but God has something better in store.  And I can do whatever it takes to get there — I can ride out the storm.  I can be blessed by the changes in the seasons.  I can be honored by a me that is fresh and empowered and prophetic with the cleansing energy of God.

I can release as many times as it takes — 77 times 7 — for as many days as it takes through as many rains as it takes — through as many leaves that have to fall and keep falling until my tree is bare and my heart has surrendered.

I can take my power back, and rise again — like a phoenix from the ashes because there is something good in store for me.


Reverend Cecilia Loving

Reverend Cecilia Loving is the spiritual leader of SPIRITMUV®, a trans-denominational church.  Spiritmuv transcends the confines of religion and teaches unconditional love for one another regardless of race, creed, culture, or religion.   At the heart of its teachings is what Jesus taught — that we love one another, as well as the community that Mahatma Ghandi inspired when he said, “I am a Christian and a Muslim and a Hindu and a Jew.”  Reverend Cecilia Loving is the founder and creator of Spiritmuv, which was formed in 2007.  Services are held for an hour every Sunday, from 2:30 P.M. to 3:30 P.M. at the Unity Center of NYC, located at 213 West 58th Street.

Rev. Loving, author of Prayers for Those Standing in the Edge of Greatness, is the sole owner, creator and administrator of God is a Brown Girl Too®, which holds annual retreats and workshops.  The next God is a Brown Girl Too Retreat will be held April 1-3, 2011, at the Mariandale Retreat and Conference Center.

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When I was a little girl, my mother used to tell me repeatedly “don’t act ugly, it’s not becoming.”  That mandate might seem trite to some or even inhibiting, but ultimately it became part of my own moral compass — an internal warning that measured whenever I was steering off-course.  Like  that time when I slipped and fell onstage — at the age of four and decided that the best response would be to stick out my tongue at those who giggled.  There my mother was — in the audience, reminding me that grace and poise is the most effective response to even the most embarrassing predicament.  Life’s most vexing situations are lessons in how to be dignified enough to get up, dust off, and move forward.  No one empathizes with a sore loser or an indignant tripper — especially one who acts ugly.

Acting ugly isn’t just something that we do in the physical, it is a state of consciousness that is devoid of love and compassion for others, as well as for ourselves.  When people acted ugly during the recent healthcare reform protests — by taunting and humiliating a man sitting on the ground with a sign that says he has Parkinson’s disease, they either lost their connection to Spirit or never had one in the first place.   When protesters resorted to racial epithets, anti-gay slurs and spitting — not to mention brick-throwing and death threats, they resorted to violence that is not merely punishable by law but is indicative of inner turmoil and confusion. 

The Book of Revelation calls our inner turmoil and confusion “worshipping the beast.”  No one could enter the temple — attain true inner mastery and come into oneness with God — as long as they acted ugly. (15:8)  Inner mastery takes place when our minds and hearts are clean and in one accord with Love.  Without self-mastery, we suffer the ill effects of our own hatred.  Revelation says that an “angel went and poured out his bowl on the land, and ugly and painful sores broke out on the people who had the mark of the beast and worshiped his image” (16:2).  When we are hateful, our negative energy contaminates our own mind, body and soul. 

Self-mastery is illustrated by the Congressmen who were assaulted because of their mission to provide better health care for millions of Americans.  They didn’t press charges nor did they spit back.  They simply said that they had suffered even more in the process of fighting for civil rights.  They realized that acting ugly is not a sign of strength but of weakness.  They knew that the real battle is staying focused on the legislative issues at hand.  Anything besides the passage of this important piece of legislation would be a distraction.  Acting ugly is simply beneath them.

What those who act ugly do is not merely as important as what we do in response.  If we act ugly, we worship the beast too.  Our actions reflect that we are out of alignment with the loving energy of Spirit.  This struggle, this decision whether to act ugly or to be centered in the power of a love that blesses everyone is a battle that is fought in the consciousness of everyone — every single day.

Sometimes we wage this battle within our hearts.  Sometimes we wage it in a public forum.  Sometimes it even ends up televised for millions of viewers to see.  Sometimes we are not even aware that we are battling against forces and principalities that are aspects of our own consciousness of greed, lack and limitation.  But the Comforter reminds us to be alert, less we end up on national television — spitting and hurling insults in a desperate attempt to deny people health care.  Revelation says, “Blessed is he who is awake, keeping his garments that he may not go naked and be seen exposed!”  Blessed is he who takes a step back and looks at the big picture and remembers that we are our brothers’ keeper.  We owe our neighbor the same love, the same compassion and the same respect that we ourselves expect. 

God works through each and every one of us — regardless of politics, religion or race.  But if we are acting ugly, we miss the divine opportunity to do good and block the flow of the blessings that we will receive in doing it.  When we are bitter, hateful, and resentful, we are never productive.  Our ability to move forward with success is directly proportionate to the love that we have within. 

God prepares a table for us in the presence of our enemies, right in the midst of turmoil and strife.  It’s only when we are acting ugly that we fail to see the abundance and the infinite opportunity that the universe makes available to us.  God’s good is not exhaustible.  As the rap singer Common sings, “Common good is forever.  God’s memory is forever.”  Our good is forever, as long as we don’t block it — by acting ugly.  When we stand up with love, respect and decency for all humanity   — regardless of race, wealth or politics — we stand in the victory of God expressing through us.  It is only through this transcendent spirit of generosity that the mountains will move, the sun will stand still, the waters will part, and the walls — oh the walls, will come tumbling down.


Reverend Cecilia Loving                                 

Pastor, SPIRITMUV  ( )


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love 103A lot of people reading my book Prayers for Those Standing on the Edge of Greatness have told me that it has been a tremendous blessing in helping them release toxic relationships, negative energy, old baggage, and other stuff that we all have to clean up in order to move forward in our lives.

LOVE 2Several weeks ago, at the SPIRITMUV Sunday Service, I addressed the commandment that best supports this process of spiritual de-cluttering, which is the Seventh Commandment: You shall not commit adultery.  In the flesh, we believe that the Seventh Commandment is just about lying to others.  But it is also about lying to ourselves.  The only way that we can cleanse what we don’t need in our lives is to take an honest inventory of what’s there.  Jesus taught that we should have so much integrity that if our right eye causes us to sin, we must “gouge it out and throw it away” and if our right hand causes us to sin, we must “cut it off and throw it away.”  

eyeIt takes a lot to cut off our hand or pluck out our eye and fortunately, it’s not required that we do it in the physical realm.  But Jesus said, do the work.  Do as much as you can to clean up your act.  Only then, do you even begin to see the blessings behind the door upon which your heart knocks. 

eye-14The Seventh Commandment’s mandate to clean up our acts forces us to dig well beyond the appearances of the lives we lead to remove all of the complex lies that we hide in.  In fact,  I believe that a better way of saying this commandment is not that you must not cheat on others but that you must not cheat yourself.  If you are lying to others, you are lying to yourself.  If you are cheating yourself, you are not being your best nor are you attracting the best relationships and experiences to you.

 stone-10Eric Butterworth taught that you can be in a marriage committing adultery, even if you are faithful to your spouse in the physical sense.  You are cheating your spouse and yourself if you don’t want to be in the marriage, but you don’t have the courage to leave.  Any time you are dishonest, you are committing adultery because you are cheating your Highest Self, by living a lie.  Jesus confronted everyone with their lies when he told the crowd at the Mount of Olives,  let he who has no sin cast the first stone.  (John 8:7 NIV) 

stoneNot one of us is perfect.  All of us have lied.  All of us have cheated.  All of us have sinned.  Cleaning our own house does not permit finger-pointing, unless it is at ourselves.   We know that each person on the Mount of Olives who had condemned the woman scorned disappeared when Jesus added the requirement that only those who had no sin could stone her.  The Bible said that each person left one by one, “beginning with the oldest even to the last.”  No one was spared.

clean-6Cleaning our houses means that we let go of the past, step away from the person who we used to be, and move forward in the divine energy of renewed commitment.  Jesus said, go and sin no more.  (John 8:11)   How exactly do we do that?  Sometimes when we look at where we are, it seems overwhelming.  First, we can start with the physical stuff.  We can throw away or give away the papers, the boxes, the files, the clothes, and other stuff that we no longer need — in order to make room for the new.  When we do this simple physical task, we open spaces in our consciousness to receive God’s good. 

clean-10 Second, we can forgive the people, the situations and the circumstances that we have been holding onto.  Sometimes we can’t do this part alone.  So we pray to Spirit, to God, to Love to do the work through us.  This often requires the heavy lifting of disappointments, pain and remorse.  This requires us to stop hanging on to crutches and stop languishing in the belief that we are less than God’s anointed.  Deep down inside, we are aware of the relationships that no longer serve our highest good, that are filled with jealousy and gossip and hatred. 

surrender-15Albert  Einstein said “arrows of hate have been shot at me too, but they never hit me because somehow they belong to another world with which I have no connection whatsoever.”  (Michael Beckwith, quoting Einstein in Spiritual Liberation)  The world that Einstein speaks of is one that is cleansed of his own bitterness and frustration, one where he has released whatever and whoever was not supportive of his higher good and greater purpose.  As Arthur Schopenhauer indicated, we have to release those we thought were friends when they will not support our success.

 surrender-7Third, we have to cleanse the consciousness and conduct that causes us to cheat ourselves out of being the divine creation that we are.  This is even more difficult.  In order to cast out the old hang-ups, fears and doubts, we have to first identify them; and then we have to be courageous enough to let them go.  We have to be honest with ourselves about what causes us to fall short of what we want to accomplish in our lives.   We have to be honest about what we need to do in order to demonstrate the power that we are blessed with.  

surrender-1Of course, this is not a seasonal but an ongoing process of self-examination and self-discovery. 

As autumn winds blow and colder days arrive, it is a perfect time to go within and at least begin this inner journey. 

At minimum, we can begin to clean up our acts, so that we can stop blocking the endless flow of good that God is pouring into our lives.  Yes, it is a process that we must grow through.  But ultimately, this process is far more important than the hopes and dreams that lead us through it. 

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orange leafWhen we read the story of Cain and Abel, most of us stick our self-righteous noses in the air and get downright judgmental.  Most of us know the story told in Genesis — of Cain killing his brother Abel in a fit of jealous rage.  “I wouldn’t kill my brother — what a horrible thing”, we quickly conclude, as if we are above any sort of violence and most certainly above killing.
GBGII photo But Ecclesiastes 3 teaches us that there is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the sun: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, and a time to heal, as well as a time to kill.  One metaphysical interpretation is that Cain and Abel are two parts of a whole, or two aspects of our own consciousness.  There are times when killing can take the form of releasing the negative energy from our own lives, times when we should release the old in order to give way to the new.  The people, situations and circumstances that we experience change.  When they do, there is no reason to hang on to them.  We have to honor that regenerative part of life that uproots and restructures just in order to bless us with something new.
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 In 1st Corinthians 15:31, Paul said “I die daily” (NKJV), teaching us that the need to change, to deconstruct, to reinvent, to tear the feathers from our own wings and allow some aspect of us to be destroyed is tantamount to the resurrection that we need to move forward.   I feel as if I have been growing through this season of shedding the old, so that I can make way for the new.  Just like the beautiful trees whose leaves reflect the rays of the sun, and then fall when their branches dance in the wind, we too shake away that which no longer serves us.  We sometimes need to strip down to our bare essentials so that we can feel the ease of simplicity in everything that we do.   For me, that may mean doing nothing, moving slowly, watching carefully, listening deeply, being quietly, waiting patiently, releasing gracefully.  It’s not a time of mourning either; it’s a time of allowing every aspect of who we are to change.

Walking through Brooklyn alone, I encounter the sun-kissed golden of tulip trees, the vibrant crimson of red maples and the bold orange of sugar maples — just to name a few.  I am by no means a tree expert and am more content to lose myself in the soul stirring magic of Rachelle Ferrell singing  Autumn Leaves than I am likely to take the Crape-Myrtle Walk at the Brooklyn Botanical Garden.  Neither experience, however, ceases to amaze me.  There is something so deeply Detroit in my heart that it opens up to the natural vibrations of street rhythms just as quickly as it gives way to the sweet harvest of apple orchards, the liberating sounds of Geri Allen’s At This Time or the cold winds doing a last dance with everything that shakes before winter comes.  The sacred is always here, and we are always in its midst.

GBGII Web Page OneIn Genesis, God told Cain “sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it.”  And later, in the Sixth Commandment, Moses taught, “you shall not kill.”  All of these passages mean that we must master our tendency to release and destroy with our need to create and demonstrate.  Ultimately, it’s not what we harvest that matters but what we’ve learned through our sowing, pruning, weeding, and reaping.  If we do the necessary cleaning, we can release the stuff that we don’t need and open a better space to honor whatever remains.  We can look at ourselves with new eyes and a brand new possibility of salvation, not based on who we once were, but who we are.  Beech Tree Trunk
I’m not raising Cain anymore, but I can see the divine in this season of release.  I’m not worried ’bout the sin crouching at my door either.  I’ve learned to step — albeit politely — right over it.  When autumn leaves begin to fall…  I can heal from my whatever plagues me.  I can paint with new colors.  I can see with new vision.  I can be amazingly quiet, and listen to the sound of life giving way to me.  I can exhale long prayers and inhale the solitude of peace. 
Even if my leaves blow and leave me naked in the wind; my roots are strong and keep me sturdy — cleansed from my old sins and directed in the purpose of God.


Reverend Cecilia Loving                                 
Pastor, SPIRITMUV  (Services are every Sunday at 2:30 PM at the Unity Center of NYC, 213 West 58th Street, right off B’way near Columbus Circle)



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When was the last time you cleansed your mind?

good 5 Just like our physical bodies require a daily cleansing regimen, so do our minds.

It’s amazing how our minds collect so much internal clutter and mental grime — accumulated over time from the daily mental stresses, disappointments and negative thoughts floating through our consciousness.

Proverbs 23:7 says, as “a man thinketh in his heart, so is he”, or as I like to affirm, “as a woman thinketh in her heart, so is she.” This means that whatever you allow to occupy in your thought pattern is what you will eventually become, so you must to cleanse your mind in order to reflect your best self.

Before I discovered the transformative power of a mental cleansing, I, like so many other people, was not in the habit of clearing my consciousness of fear, doubt and lack.  I failed to scrub away the mental residue and dead cells of a consciousness that clogged my creativity, concentration and discernment.  Years of negative self talk and verbal attacks from others had resulted in layers of dirty, self-defeating thought patterns and habits.

For most of my adult and career life, I was oblivious to the universal principle of cause and effect as it relates to the body of thoughts which together form my consciousness and my resulting life experiences.  I had read Paul’s scripture, “be transformed by the renewing of your mind” (Romans 12:2), but I had never really focused on what those words meant.

Looking back I realize more than ever how I was constantly worrying about everything and everyone, every situation and each encounter.  Without the benefit of a spiritual cleansing, my life began to mirror the battle ground of my mind instead of the peace of my soul.  My life began to reflect my inner struggles, self-doubt and persistent pain.  Indecisiveness became middle name.

I worried about what others had to say about my career choices, relationships and even my dreams.  I worried about my brother’s drug addiction.  I worried about my father’s alcoholism.  I worried about my mother’s health.  But my habit of worrying about the appearances of things  did not help me or the people who I was worried about.  Instead, their challenges became painful distractions that usurped my energy, focus, clarity, and commitment.

Until I discovered how to cleanse my mind with the help of Spirit, I could not help anyone.  I remained trapped in unproductive roles.  For example, I starred as the enabling sister, the distraught daughter, and frantic friend.   I lost myself in fighting everyone else’s battles except my own.  In hindsight, I realized that by allowing all of other folks’ stuff to cloud my consciousness, I could lose myself in the defeat of depression because I was really helpless to help anyone until I could first help myself.  I was drowning in the depths of inadequacy because I did not have the strength to redeem others.  But I should have been first been focused on redeeming myself.

Have you ever been there?

Today, I am truly blessed to have a consistent mental cleansing regimen that consists of  affirmations, prayer and meditation.  Through this daily practice, I wash away the  negative thoughts, fears, worries, and pain that once polluted my consciousness.

A few years ago, the deep desire to change my life resulted in a quest to transform my perspective.  I began to embrace all of the self-healing materials and tools that I could find.  I also studied biblical scriptures, self-help books,  and metaphysical readings.  I meditated as often as possible, using the power of affirmations to cleanse my mind, strengthen my self-esteem, and release my prayers to the Kingdom of God within.  To really get a thorough cleansing, I had to be honest with myself: only the truth shall set you free.  Only seeing you for who you really are and coming face to face with your personal challenges will free you from them.

As I continue to cleanse my mind daily, I clear space for more productive experiences.  I find that I have greater focus.  I stand on more solid ground with the positive self talks of the Spirit within because for once in my life, I can actually hear God speaking through me. The wisdom of Spirit embraces my soul with dynamic thoughts, dreams and life experiences.  The energy of faith manifests all my desires with quicker results.  The vision of victory pulls me toward the completion of what God has called me to accomplish with a steadier, less resistant pace.  I can give to others with better grace, clarity and conviction; and they are able to receive the nurturing love of Spirit expressing through me.

If this is what you need in your life, please join me on Saturday, October 24, for the “Cleansing the Mind” workshop during the God Is a Brown Girl, Too conference, where we will open our minds to release the clutter of  past wounds and the appearance of present “mess” for the future joy of a purifying transformation.   Regardless of your springtime attempts to clear the debris, we are all in need of a “Fall” Cleaning.  Come join us and be lifted by an “internal” makeover that will bless your mind, body and spirit with radiance, rejuvenation and recreation.